"it's really been a while. . ."
So as you guys can tell I haven't blogged in quite some time. I had so many other things going on. I'm losing my job, I find out next week when my last day is so I'm not on a frantic search for something in my area where I can make the same or more a week with better health benefits and hours.. and something that will just make me happier. On top of that I went through this whole depressive phase. I didn't think I'd miss my grandmother so much still after a year. Then, for a while I was occupied with head-punch.com, the gaming/reviews site. That's on a hiatus as well because the guys have been busy with either school or their personal lives/girlfriends. I struggled for a while debating whether or not to keep this site going. I've had it forever, longer than I had deafening-silence.org up.
I decided to keep this up after all. It's something to do. I need my creativity.
Tomorrow is my 21st birthday. Yay. I don't even have the day planned out. I don't know how I'm going to get through work today, knowing that I have the next 6 days off. I hate being there anymore. AAAHH! Speaking of, I have to go and get ready for work so I gotta end this blog here =]
"Phone tag & random thoughts"
Jennay and I are supposed to meet up today so we can finally hang out, but we keep missing each others calls. Oh, I take that back, she just called. Yay. Anyone have a good mother's day gift idea? I'm stuck this year. My back kinda hurts.. still.
No fun at the bridal shower. I know now why I went. My sister dumped the baby off with me as soon as I got there because she was "helping" with the shower. So there I am, in front of like 50-70 people that I don't know, chasing a 2 year old around.. and now everyone thinks that the kid that won't behave, sit still, or shut up, is mine. Needless to say that I didn't get to see most of the bridal shower, or really eat that much, or see gifts being opened. I spent three hours running after, walking around with, washing off, and wanting to kill this kid-- or my sister. I'm not even supposed to be lifting anything over 40lbs because of my back problems. And what am I doing? Constantly bent over trying to pick this kid up off the floor before people step on him or trip over him. I was in so much pain the next day. Here's some semi-good news though, I won a basket at the shower with wine glasses, cutting board, candles, rose petals, a paring knife, corkscrew, and some pink looking wine. I thought it was going to be decent because it had the words pink, sweet, and fruity on it. It was horrible! It tasted like bad apple cider. Ughh.
On that note, I'm going to dry my hair and get dressed so I can go meet up with Jennay in a half hour. Yay.
"Here comes the... boring!"
I have a bridal shower to go to in about three hours. I've never been to one before so I'm probably not going to have much fun. On top of that, it's not even for one of my friends, it's for one of my SISTER'S friends. So everyone there is going to be 10 years older and probably have their three annoying kids with them. There goes me sitting by myself in a corner with a cup of flat soda wishing I could use the cake knife to slit my wrists. Oh, and it's going to be more fun because I'm a fucking emotional wreck today for no apparent reason. I need August to come fast.
"my brain hurts"
It's 1:30am. I'm tired, but I'm not tired. And I'm a bit hungry. I have so much to do tomorrow. Hopefully the title for my car came in-- I need to go sign that. The dealership called and told me that they have my remote starter out of my old car for me-- so I have to go pick that up so I can sell it and get money :) So yeah, if anyone is interested in a remote start & keyless entry system for their car (it's a viper) email me. Mkay? Haha.
I want to go get a pedicure tomorrow but I'm not sure where to go for it. There's some places I won't trust and I've never gotten one. I've only had my nails done once and I hated the guy that did it because he was sooo mean to me and my friend, he told us next time come earlier. I was like WTF? I also have to go to work (not to the call center but to the actual shop) to see Mike, and ask him to take a look at my windshield cause I think I have a few chips in it and I want to get them fixed for now until I have money to replace the windshield, plus I don't want to replace the windshield being I only have the car for a week! Haha. I can't get over it. I love this car.
Adam took a day off work tomorrow. I think we're supposed to go for dinner but I'm not sure where yet. We went to Olive Garden tonight. It was good. I actually tried something different for once and almost finished a meal. I wish the doctors would find out what's wrong with my stomach. The pains are coming back again and I'm starting to eat less, or sometimes during the day I'll feel too sick to eat but when I need to get to bed I'll be starving and want to eat everything. These dumb bitches at work were trying to tell my one friend that if she rubbed real gold on her skin and it turned green then it meant she was anemic. WTF-- they don't know shit. I'm anemic, and I own real gold, and it never does anything to me. People and their old wives tales. If that was the case then doctors would be rubbing gold on us instead of doing blood-work and other tests. It annoys me how stupid people are. I should get something quick to eat before bed though. I'm gunna sleep good tonight thanks to my buddy mr silver raz :)
"My new car: 2007 Dodge Caliber SXT"
Here's how it happened, Tuesday I got a call from Carlotta (the place that sold me my '98 plymouth breeze) asking me if I still worked at DTAG, if I still lived at home and didn't pay rent, and blah blah. I figured they just want to keep my file updated. And then she goes "I'm going to try to get you approved for a new program. If I can get you approved, is there any type of vehicle you'd be interested in?" I've gone through this with them many times before where they try to get me in some other vehicle. At first it was an '06 Sebring, then it was an '01 or '02 Jeep Grand Cherokee. So I thought I'd play along and say "Yeah, I really like the Dodge Calibers!" Ten minutes later, she's calling back saying "Great news! We have a white one! Do you want to come look at it?"
I figured what the hell, bring my car down there to see what they give me and laugh at the price they want for it and how much they want me to put down on the car.. So I take my lunch at 2:30, run down there (the car lot is seriously two blocks from where I work). She was really down-to-earth. She showed my this car and a lot of small things that I would never have bothered to notice, like the cooler in the glove box, the electrical outlet in the console, the iPod dock, the rear dome that comes out and doubles as a flashlight. That kind of stuff takes me weeks to find! Now mind you I wanted a Caliber since they came out so she really didn't have to sell it too hard. I was just waiting for the numbers. We go inside, and the guy tells me that I owe $2,450 on my car (or something like that) but he's dropping it down to $2,200 and giving me $3,200 for my car as a trade-in. And then the girl tells me I would only need to put $200.00 down on the car, which would be easy because my payment was due this week and I normally pay 150$ every two weeks, so I just took 50$ out of my paycheck and HUZZAH! I'm in a brand new car :D
The payments are actually 30$ lower, my insurance is 15$ higher, and my APR is 7% less. So I'm pretty much breaking out even. I absolutely love it. It drives like a dream :P I'll have actual pictures of the car up in my gallery soon instead of these google thumbnails :D And I think what I like about it the most is the headlights. They're so bright. My past two cars have sucked when it came to illumination. I was never able to see at night, specially when it rained. With these it's like it lights up the whole street :P Oh yes, and I no longer have to kick my hubcaps back on to make sure that they stay on and don't fall off when I go over bumps or potholes. I just gotta watch that I don't ruin the rims on it. Oh well, I gotta get going to work even though I don't feel like being stuck there until 10pm!
"mechanically retarded"
Tonight when I got out of work, I stopped at Taco Bell and headed over to Adam's house. I ate, and then we attempted to take the sub & amp out of my car, and I had plans of cleaning it out afterwards. Well, I didn't have the right tools I needed to get my stereo out to unplug the wires from the back. But we got the power wire unhooked. Go back inside, eat dinner, watch tv... a normal relaxing evening.
Until about 11pm when I decide to go home and get some sleep. Get out to my car, go to hit the remote start. And it happens. Again. My remote start didn't work. My lights flashed, and this time I heard a clicking noise like it wanted to start my car. So now I'm like "What the FUCK! I just got this fixed last week!" I figure it's no big deal, I'll unlock my car and start it the normal way. But what happened when I put the key in the ignition? nothing! I tried a few more times and still nothing. So I had to call Adam back outside and we figured maybe we didn't tighten the battery terminal all the way or something was loose. So he's there with a wrench turning it, and my keys are in my hand, and the car lights are flashing and the car is clicking. I'm thinkin it's gunna blow up.
Go figure that on a Wednesday night everyone that you call for help when you've exhausted all your options is at the bar drunk and you can't hear a word they're saying on the phone because the people and the music are loud. So Adam called his friend Adam (confused yet? lol), and he told us something to try, but that didn't work so we thought maybe I just needed a jump start. So Adam and Jason come down, hook the cars up. And nothing! STILL! Thank goodness Adam (my boyfriend's friend) is a mechanical genius, because I would have never thought to check the fuses. This is the 2nd fuse this week I blew because of this damn aftermarket remote starter! I'm having it taken out, and I'm selling it on e-bay and buying a damned iPod!! haha! I guess my car just can't handle it. Thankfully we were able to pull an extra fuse out of Jason's new Audi to use in my car, or else I wouldn't have turn signals-- and that wouldn't be good if I got pulled over because I already have 3 points on my license for running a yeild sign (retarded-- I know. On thanksgiving too which is even more insane-- but that's PA State Police for ya!).
So now I'm cold, tired, and aggrivated. Good thing tomorrow is pay day, and I'm off on Friday. I just can't take much more between work and this car!
"holy brrr!, batman!"
I don't get it. It was absolutely beautiful for a few days there. No coat or sweater type weather. Then we get some rain, and suddenly I am freezing my ass off!! It makes me angry. I hate being cold.. specially after everything being nice. I have to leave for work in a few minutes. I don't want to go in today.. or tomorrow.. or the next day. I'm over-tired. I need a good night of sleep for once.
Oh! I have another hostee, Jen. But I literally just created her sub-domain and ftp log-in so I'm not gunna link it just yet :P. But be on the look-out! Heh. Anywhore, I better get going and get dressed for work. *sigh* can someone call me in dead?
"New layout: finally up!"
I finally got the new layout up. Now I'm just working on a few kinks, like why the hell my flippin' comments disappeared! Hmm. I'm sure I'll figure this out. Anyway-- let me know what you guys think! :)
I need to budget myself better. This whole getting paid on Friday and then being broke on Saturday really isn't cutting it. I forgot that this week I had to pay my car insurance, so there went 71$ out of my check. Then my credit card payment was 60$, I paid 10$ for my Sunoco gas card, and put aside 60$ for part of my car payment that is due this coming Friday. I want another job so bad, but with my vacations in July & August, I'm afraid I won't be able to take them if I take a new job. Maybe in June they'll just tell us that we're all laid off and the company is closing and I'll just collect unemployment for those two months so I can still go to Jersey for the week :)